One Sixteenth

T -2 days

Two days until we leave, and all is in chaos. Well, why would it not be?

My throat is now not quite so agonizingly painful, now that the antibiotics are kicking in. However, now that that pain is subsiding I can feel the pain of my sinuses. Hopefully the abx will clean them out, too.

I have had the most horrible day with Aidan. Terrible. He drove me up the wall. He's been needing more attention lately. Okay, but why does he have to do THE MOST ANNOYING THINGS IN THE WORLD to try to get it? This week his legs apparently fail to work when he is displeased in the slightest way. "Daddy hurt my feelings so much I can't walk." Whining, whining, whining. And he doesn't just whine, no no no. His whine is so annoying that you will just want to scratch your ears off.

(And I suppose that one day, I will look back and hate myself for writing such things about my child in such a public forum.)

Anyway, so he was in fine form today. Then he suddenly started complaining of an earache. Mind you, all week he's had "sudden" illnesses and complaints that were NOT real, NOT true, and masked a desire for something that he for some reason didn't want to ask for (i.e. last night he claimed his stomach hurt so that he could get some tea. And then after we talked about it, he admitted that he was fine, he just wanted some tea.). AND, mind you, my Aidan is never irritated, never slightly miffed, never annoyed, never uncomfortable, never has a pain that hurts a bit ... no, Aidan is MAD, ANGRY, YELLING and in GREAT DESPERATE PAIN THE LIKES OF WHICH THE WORLD HAS NEVER KNOWN!

All the time.

It's exhausting.

And as you can imagine this makes it a bit difficult to tell the little hurts from the big hurts.

He was screaming that his ear hurt. So I put some stuff in it to make it stop hurting. He still screamed. I had Jeff give him a decongestant and Tylenol (other things I try not to do, but this week everyone's just getting the drugs, dangit). It was probably 15 minutes after that that he finally stopeed screaming. Instant personality change. Nice Aidan emerged. Then, he fell asleep.

I'm sure all you moms can understand the guilt here. He was tired. I didn't know he was tired. He slept well last night. He never takes naps during the day. And medications like Tylenol don't put him to sleep.

Unless he's really, honestly sick.

Sigh.

We are never going to get out of here on Friday.

Posted by Steph at June 11, 2003 03:27 PM